To those who have never stopped caring .. thank you for light of Hope that you have shared .
Dearest Ter ,
God is Good and has been showing us His grace all the time . You are one of His miracle. Ter ,thank you for allowing us to be a part of this journey of yours . We could never been prouder of how you fought and survived in all of this . Yes ! Everything is possible through Love and Friendship. This week is different than the other weeks , for you are home bound . Treatment has been done and you did it with flying “balbal colors”. A gift of life should now be enjoyed with His Grace. Here is to New life , friendship and Love …
You don’t need a him to make you feel good , needed or Love .
You don’t have to compare yourself to someone else . For you are unique and perfectly imperfect.
Don’t allow yourself to hold on to hate, hurt and bitterness. You are more than that .
Choose and allow yourself to forgive to those who have wrong you . You don’t have to be thier friends nor foe .. Just a person who will stand at the sideline and respect them.
Do this all not for their sake ..but for your own happiness …For you cannot exude kindness if there is bitterness in your heart ..or love when hurt and hate reign
Let Love forgiveness and kindness illuminate your soul .. You are enough , You are love and You are important .
Always , always let the sun in you shine . No matter what
Last saturday , my dear friend turned 50 .. She wanted a huge party that would celebrates her life up to this point .
She invited 50 guest .. Each one of them marked a special place in her life . They are more than just a friend .. They are her family in this foreign place .
It was a night full of not only good food but also amazing people . One of the many surprises of the evenning was the edited video of our highschool friends ( including me ) . We sang our friendship song “That’s what friends are for” .
I have watched the video multiple times since my son and myself did the edited version of it .. Everytime I watched it my mind would utter a word or two . So let me write them down …
Friendship knows no distance or time. It only speaks the words of Love , Respect and Understanding . It embraces Acceptance of who we were , who we have become and who we will be . It treasure moments the good ones for the laughters and the challenging ones for the lessons to be learned .
Friendship is knowing when to stand for , yet still holds that Boundary and Accountability of the sacrecy of a secret .
That Saturday night as I sang our friendship song I know that my dear friend is surrounded with people who appreciates the beauty of friendship, love and life ….
Life continues here ….
The surprise video
Note :
To my highschool bffs who have grew up to be amazing human beings ( Kyaw, Nory ,Cio ,Son and Al ) , to my second family ( Tatay, Manang and Ate Ju ) thank you for making this video with me ..
A beautiful face with a soul so vulnerable. She fought a battle unseen by anyone . Your tears are your strength . Your smile is weapon . Barbs , you are more than just your name
It is an honor to see YOU beyond the smile and social image . Your beauty is far beyond that.
Barbs always remember this … YOU ARE ENOUGH and Greatly appreciated to those who cared for you deeply.
On your birthday I wish you more love , travels , good health and smile . Charina and I love you dearly..
Happy birthday Nonnie
You are enough , your beauty shines beyond your social media image . And it is an honor to see YOUR HEART . We love you !!
No matter how vast the universe if the stars and planets will align you will meet the people that are destined to be part of you .. This is what they called Destiny . One of the many mystery of Life .
My Noonies
We have met years back but our friendship has just developed recently.
My nonnies are my happy pills . We could talk about all kind stuffs. Our chat group is free flow venting -fangirling place .. A space where we could just be silly . Unafraid , feeling fully accepted and respected .
Charina
Charina and I known each other way back in our elementary years. I always remember her as my pretty classmate with an amazing smile . She was in my eyes the chinese garter queen and jackstone warrior.
I am glad the my friendship with her have blossomed . She is my fangirl Nonnie who would gladly share my passion with the small kdrama details .. Nonnie Cha , you just don’t how glad I am to know that behind those pretty face is a woman who is sensitive , amazing friend and a fangirl . Thank you for coming into my life .
Barbie
My nonnie Barbie ,her nickname describes her beauty . Her love for OOTD is immense .
Barbs as I called her is one of the most pretty loving yet sensitive soul . She has her own battle that no one knew . I love her vulnerability that shines across her pretty OOTD .
Barbs, we have been through quite a lot I have considered more than just a friend .. like Cha you are part of me and the journey that we all part take will be done with grace and smile .
Keep those heels high along with our head . You are more than just a pretty face.
The story of us will continue .. in between breaks and binge watching ..
I must write about you , our path have crossed when I was deeply wounded of a love that played me .
You were charming ,persistent and kind . I shut my doors multiple times but you kept on knocking ..
Like a stroke of lighting you have unarmed me …allowed my shield to go down .. I have embraced and romanticize this foolishness .
When summer came you have changed I felt your coldness and I know its time to part ways .
Its been months since our path have ended , but still … and yet …
There are times that my heart yearns to hear your soft voice .. the naugtiness of your thoughts .. I miss you and the routines
It was a good while it lasted.. sunrise will soon come .. I must move forward…I will cherish the memories think of them once in awhile but I won’t linger .
“Rain didn’t make things messy. People did all on their own .” — Barbara Delinsky , The Secret Between Us .
It is when you have decided to just let it be . Enjoy and make the best of everything, The unexpected things happened .
He walked in through that door like a cold hush of wind in that winter morning . He is aloof yet sweet, naughty yet decent, playful yet serious. A deciever yet honest . He would push you away to a distance that he could easily reach out for you. He is my complication
He embodied everything that I detest yet I am drown closer to him. He is the tears that falls from eyes and the smile that curves my lips. He is my complication.
Wiggle and struggle , tried to untangle this knot of connection towards my complication.
Experienced multiples death towards this untanglement. Shattered my heart .
Walk a far reaching for that Hand . The hand that exudes warmth of understanding and non judgemental .
Cling on , as I wiggle and struggle.
My complication is calling me like a tempter in a cold empty night . I hear him , I want to adhere , to surrender towards the voice of my complication .
I cling on harder to the grip of this hand of friendship that understands the struggle of my innermost soul. I am thankful , I am lucky for he is my sanity .
There he is again my wonderful tempter complication .
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