There is this point in ourlives that we face with situations that we are not comfortable with . No matter how you would choose to look at it tackle it you will still end up being hurt.
There moments in ourlives that we are painted by the colors that does not describe the totally of us. It was a color that once came due to a situation. This becomes your color. No matter how many times you became a brighter shade. There will always be people that will remember you as a dark tone .
Months I have struggled , I wanted to prove them wrong , I wanted to unhurt myself by understanding the situation. But I can’t . So the cycle of being judge , feeling unsure circles around me.
Until that moment that I realized I know me better that anyone else . I am me , I am not perfect , I am a person that is embodied with different shades . I am colorful . I accept me and I love me …that is all that matters. I will wipe my tears look up to the sun …
I will shine because I am colorful … I am free .. I have learn and I am a beautiful imperfect soul .
How are you ? It has been more than 40 days since you left us . I miss you … I miss the chuckie talks when you would pushed me in a corner of admission. I miss your ” wow” comments even if my selfie were out of this world ..
You have been a part of my chitchats small or unrelevant talks during my breaks I miss that too. If I would enumerate all the little things that I missed from you I know a blog would not be enough.
Our last conversation you just said goodbye to me in a very subtle way . I tried to swayed you to wait for me … my way of asking you to fight a little bit longer . We know it was an uphill battle and you have won them all . You have survived the hardest storm of your life, and the time has come for you to rest . No more pain .. That is why even if our hearts are in pain we have gladly let you go . Worry not for everything will be taken care of .
A vow for a friend has been made.
About a week ago we had the most beautiful heartfelt party . It was both a celebration of our life and the friendships that we have made along the way.
Ter , I know you are smiling down at us … You are now our personal angel..
Bob , Totskie, Dangs, Randy( yes si capt humot🙃) and rest of the Moonwalkers89 misses your naughtiness and the energy that you shared every time we will have our activities .. Fly with us Ter as we will embark a new phase in our Journey .
In de dawn of the winter I met you. I was cold and hurt. You gave me warmth and mend my wounds . I was hesitant to hold your hands but you told me it is just okey.
I learned to trust you , hold you , the sun was rising again , flowers starts to grow. I saw spring and starts to love the songs that birds sang .
On one autumn day , I saw an image of you different from what I used to see. Your words cuts like a knife in my heart. Why ? I felt betrayed . I tried to hang on but in me I know something has changed , something has died .
I tried to heal , to revived … but it was just “I” .. “WE” does not exist anymore.
It’s time , to cut lose , to accept the hurt , betrayal has killed my love for you.
Goodbye .. summer will soon come into my life … as long as I have ME I will be okey
As I walked through the path of Ray … I am and will always choose happiness balance with kindness . At times when I am out of focus .. out of my ray .. I will take a deep breath seek inside me . I am the spark , I am the ray … exude , breath … look up , walk on …