Journey towards Body acceptance

“Life is too short to be unkind to YOURSELF” — Holly Habeck

   We tend to project and give in to the pressure of the society on what  beauty is  and the ideal body looks like . I am no exception to these I am 100% a whore to fit in the body image . I call myself Ms. Wanting to fit in .

This is where all it started

   As a child I was always been chubby , I never had a complexity with my body . People who are dear to me have always accepted the way I am .

At 4 years

   Until adolescence  came knocking on my door ..  Suddenly , I wanted to be the muse instead of a class mayor .. but year after year I never became one .

Induction of Officers for Circle K club U.P Tacloban chapter

Insecurities towards my body image started to creep in … I started to diet ..yes ! I tried all kinds  of diet craze Atkins , fruit diet , cracker diet , no carbs, I just mimic the fad without understanding the principle behind every eating principles   ..I yo-yoed my way through the “acceptable body” to the  point that I have suffered an eating disorder .

Eating disorder the answer of my dreams ?

   Just right after college I became more obsessed with controlling my weight .

It all started with just 2 spoons of rice and it has escalated to almost not eating ..The hunger sensations gave pleasure . My once chubby self has now changed into “the acceptable size ” .

  I barely eat and even drinking water gave  me that sense of fear and guilt  to become fat . Hence anything that comes into my system  must come out , Vomitting is the solution . I have the body that I have always dreamed of ( as I believed so)

  Vomitting gave me that sense of control …

  I had started with anorexia then turn to bulimia .. A love affair that would stay with me for quite awhile . I can still remember vividly how I would walked in and out  to the kitchen of my aunt’s house ( I was living with them) so they won’t suspect that I haven’t eaten yet or I would tell my aunt that I ate with my friends or at my friends house, I always have an excuse ready to avoid eating.

   Food at this phase is both an enemy and lover . There were days that just by staring I could visualize what’s in it and find reasons why I shouldn’t eat it . And if I do, it must come out of my system as  fast as possible.

  There were days when I would just eat  because I felt the hunger.  But then ended up feeling guilty because I ate .. and I would punished myself .

It was an endless vicious cycle .. I thought it was a part of a diet and has denied the fact that I have an early on set of anorexia -bulimia .

  When you suffered from eating disorders it stays with you even if you have overcome the adversity .. It is like having a sleeping demons inside of you that would be awaken anytime a situation becomes uncontrollable or you want to punish yourself.

Looking stunning from the outside ..suffering from the inside

  The Turning Point

December 25, 2003 as I battled my inner demons I gave birth to a beautiful son . It’s the only perfect unconditional love that I know. I would do anything and everything for him and that includes healing myself.

Rerouting to a healthier path is never easy . It is a cocktail of relapsing , patience and moving forward . All I know is that giving up is not an option.

Embracing my womanhood means it is not compromising yourself to the fads of diet schemes . It is appreciating every curves and marks that my body has . Sleeping at a decent time and eating the right healthy portion .

Exercise at least 30 mins a day would help clear your mind and cleanse your skin . Yoga is my favorite it is in harmony with my whole being with respect and acceptance to who I was and who I am now .


   The cardinal rule of becoming healthy are Exercise , Proper  diet , adequate sleep and LOVE .

  Love plays a major role here .. this is the basic principle in succeeding into our health goals .

Because of Love we will try to respect and listen to our body. It is due to this respect that we are motivated to nourish both our body and mind ( through meditation )  

Love pushes us to honor our agreement with our health . This is manifested through our dedication towards our exercise goals .

Love radiates inward that would makes us feel better . Loves exudes outward as our confidence grow and our determination persevere . 

Love taught me and is teaching me lessons .

As Rumi said

“Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love.”


  Special thanks to my editor

Ms.Marelle Apas who patiently read every single word of my chaotic blog

My Family who helped me walked through the challenges of life and My Friends , my personal dolphins who listens with open soul.. forever grateful







Published by jee426

Life is a bowl of lessons to learn . It is a magnitude of colors that sparks the way you choose them to shine . I am a soul who have walked some rough path and learn from them . I am a being that accepts the challenges of life with a humble heart . Grateful for the lessons that I have learned through the years. Small victories that is all I need .. I hope to somehow to uplift my readers with the journeys that I have shared.

7 thoughts on “Journey towards Body acceptance

  1. Gusto ko mohilak…I never thought you experienced this thingy too just like my baby. Ang sinasabi ko lang sa comes in all forms, sizes, colors and etsetera. I luv u just the way u are.

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  2. I never knew you were suffering then. You exhibited happy disposition. You are one of my genuine sis -friend. Whatever your size is doesnt matter to me. It’s the inside, your heart, that matters to me not the physical size.
    I love you, wenggay 🥰 miss you much. Stay safe together with your family and momma 🙏
    I envy your candle -formed fingers 😂

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  3. Kaya ako hnd n ako nagdidiet, I just eat everything, in moderation n nga lang, especially ung rice, I believe that loving yourself is not depriving to eat what you want, happy eating and keep safe everyone ❤️

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  4. Im glad you surpassed those things..even before.i love you the way you are already..and loving you more of what youve become my dear..


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